Feeling pretty is a total mystery. It's one of those things that just happens. It might not be every day, it might be a few times per day, whenever it happens, it's fun.
While I've been on the weight loss, work out, eat right, get confident journey, it's been kind of hard to feel pretty. Something about changing every single thing about your habits and daily life can take a toll on your self confidence, feeling pretty without a shred of self confidence, is practically impossible.
Now that I'm 65lbs down and have only 18 left to lose, (& have been at this plateau for months) I'm trying to give me a break and stop talking myself out of every ounce of self confidence that randomly pops up. A little glance in the mirror that makes me think 'oh okay, you're not so bad today' is not illegal.
It doesn't mean I can stop working on my goals, but I've got to remind myself that I'm not 80lbs overweight anymore, that I've made progress to be proud of. I've changed my life in almost every way, look different and it wouldn't be the end of the world if I felt pretty for a minute.
Last week I tried something new and ate only vegetables for lunch and dinner every day. It wasn't glamorous, it was fun to try something new, but I must say it was really just to see if I could make the scale drop drastically. Heaven knows I'm not a nutritionist, I went to bed hungry every night and averaged only 800 calories a day. DUMB. I know, but I thought it would work.
The scale thought I was joking around and didn't budge a single ounce in either direction. I know it's because I didn't have enough calories daily and what I did consume my body held onto like a vice grip. It sounds ridiculous, but I think if I had felt just the teesyist bit pretty sometime in the past few months, my confidence level wouldn't be in the toilet and I wouldn't be so upset with myself for not loosing any weight these past few weeks. I wouldn't have done something silly to make up for it.
This weekend, I tried on pretty spring dresses at a store just for fun, took a compliment without objection, let my husband point the camera at me without telling him to stop, got a fancy haircut (after the photos were taken) and felt pretty almost the whole time.
I have to thank the lovely Allura who did my face at the photo shoot, GIRL IS AMAZING at what she does.
Because I won't be seeing you anytime soon, which is a bummer, the only way I can make you feel pretty is to convince you that the next time someone says something wonderful to you, the best thing to do is not object or argue and try not to dismiss them.
Seriously now, the next time a compliment comes your way, please don't say anything in response except Thank you very much. Regardless if they like your cute shoes, your earrings or your smile, whatever nice little thing it is they say to you. Thank them and let yourself feel pretty.
Your self confidence will in turn, thank you later.