I honestly don't know! I'd love to have an answer to explain, even to myself why I've left the blogging out of my pregnancy and every single time I try to think about it I come up with nothing. I can say for sure at least that part of it has been this ridiculous fear that I was going to jinx the pregnancy somehow or that as soon as I got nice and comfy and in a healthy spot of accepting that everything is going okay and according to plan, that something suddenly wouldn't anymore.
Is that really reason enough to basically document this amazing journey with only photos and no words? NO. LOL. So here I am. Trying to make up for the past 34 weeks of awesome. BTW, awesome translates to a long list of things that during the last 3 years I thought I might never be able to complain about. I wasn't sure if I would be lucky enough to have a healthy pregnancy, so I plan to explain the REAL meaning of awesome at some point in the next 5 weeks and 4 days, promise. By no means am I trying to sound like one of those brats that feels like they have a right to moan and whine about every symptom they have, but has this amazing amazing amazing life changing experience been at all what I thought it would be and prayed for? Nope. Does it change my plans for future children? Nope!
To sum it up quickly I haven't had the smoothest pregnancy, wait I take that back. It's been free of complications (except for a minor one) yes, but am I that cute pregnant lady wearing heels with a manicure and perfect glowing skin? Um nope. I've been blessed with morning sickness, and sometimes night sickness almost every single day for the past 34+ weeks and have carpel tunnel like my 77 year old grandmother. A few women that I consider myself to be fairly close to have told me that after watching me go through this, they are actually reconsidering children. No, sadly I'm not kidding.
I've gained weight like a...well like a pregnant lady and my feet swell up every single night just like everyone always said they would. I have a 25 minute train ride into work, and almost every day (up until about 2 weeks ago) I was left standing the entire ride because the other riders pretend not to notice the pregnant lady standing in front of them holding onto the hanging strap for dear life. It's just one more thing I never really put too much thought into. I just imagined a happy pregnant nicole that floated around on a cloud sipping decaf and taking long naps. Anyway, more on that later.
OK that's enough jibber jabber, time for some pictures!
OH wait one more piece of Jibber Jabber. The beach ball I'm carrying around day and night is a little baby boy. We're going to have a son! Still haven't decided on a name for the little guy, but hopefully we will soon.
Jibber Jabber finished!